CNY 2011

From my last post, is kinda long time I didn't update my bloggie.. 

Today already 初四.. 

This CNY, from beginning is still okay.. 

But actually sad case begin.. 

This year, for rabbit.. just a bad year... 

Not to say I believe such myth.. 

But, now I do feel so.. 

In what field.. also not in good situation.. 

Yea.. Can said that this year is different.. 

cause I in relationship... Everyone know I'm in relationship.. 

When in hometown, everyone ask me when I wanna marry.. 

Kinda stupid question that ask me.. 

I still enjoy my life.. single life.. no burden... 

 Start from today, everything just started.. started to change.. 

I mean my mind.. my heart.. my thinking.. 

I have many things to face... 

to suffer... 

Don't know why.. 

I started hard to believe... 

I already don't know how to trust.. 

I don't want lose anything.. 

but.. something is out of control.. 

The hurt, is very pain... 

Let's see how it goes.. 

I can't see anything now.. 

I'm lost! 

Maybe I just need time to consider.. 

what should it goes.. 

I should put it aside.. 

enjoy my holiday 99... 

Call people to accompany me.. 

as if I alone, I surely will do something crazy.. 

Yea.. That's me.. 

whatever hurt that I give myself doesn't can compare with my heart pain.. 

-XOXO-