Mid of Sept

Today is 16.09.2011... Malaysia Day... 

Hahaha... Nothing do with me except I have holiday... 

What the special of this holiday.. 

I have no idea... except I can wake up late nothing else I can do... 

Imagine I total I have 3days holiday... 

Fucking long huh... 

Guess what.. I started emo.. emo.. & emo... 

What I want to do.. is cannot make it... 

I want movie... All friend - some back hometown la... some got bf accompany la... 

Is feels that.... not a good feeling... 

I didn't mean want my friend no BF... 

just that it makes me feel alone... 

I started to envy... 

I started feel alone... 

How good now I need to work... 

at least some colleague with me... 

I feel want go out walk... alone? Yea... Maybe... 

but go out, see those couple... those family... damn... Sigh... 

I lazy to write in blog... 

i rather keep everything in myself... 

Not feel sharing to anyone... 

Yea, this minute I can smile with u.. 

Do u feel that smile is true from heart?

Don't say others, I also doubt of myself.. 

I lost myself.. 

Yea.. I already don't know what I really like.. 

What I need now... 

I just keep on force myself get used of this feeling... 

Make myself immune... 

Yea.. Maybe after immune, I will no feeling anymore... 

Faded.. 

-XOXO-